It’s overcast today and supposed to rain. I think I will make Theresa’s chili tonight.
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I’ve been feeling very bleh the last few days. Some people suggest blaming the blahness on January, but I’m not sure that’s a legitimate excuse when you live in the desert where it’s mostly sunny during the winter. Maybe the post-holiday letdown is to be blamed, though, along with the weather. I guess I can buy that.
I also think it’s because I haven’t had much down time. Being a SAHM means that you are on 24/7 and the only “down time” you get is when your spouse is home to take over, but even then, you’re not really off-duty, because if you’re in the vicinity, you’re still “mom”. Anyway, my spouse hasn’t been home to take over so much the last week - as in last week he was gone every day and every night at either work or a meeting, except Wednesday night. He was even gone most of the day on Saturday. And yes, I did get a haircut on Friday, but two hours of downtime doesn’t quite make up for an entire week of no downtime. You know?
It caught up to me Sunday and Monday and I totally shirked all my responsibilities because I was just ready to…I don’t know what I was ready to do…but I needed a break. So I didn’t go sing at church Sunday night, but I kept LG with me anyway. And yesterday, we had a mass at the high school, but I woke up feeling puky (no, I’m not pregnant), and since I’m expendable because all I do is stand in front of the choir and wave my arms around, and Mike can manage to direct both the choir and band himself if necessary, Mike went ahead and took LG to Grandma’s, and I stayed home in bed all morning and a good part of the afternoon. (Whew, that was a really long sentence.) When he brought her home, he had to go to work, but it was her naptime, so I got an extra long break - as in about 8 hours altogether. I am feeling less bleh today, but Mike is going to be really busy this week, too, so I hope it doesn’t decide to come back.
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Little Girl is apparently, from what evidence I can gather, cutting her last couple of teeth. Of course, I hope it’s her last couple of teeth. I thought she’d already cut the last teeth, but since she constantly has her fingers in her mouth, is much more “drooly” than usual, and also a bit more cranky and obstinate than usual (even for a two year old), I’m chalking it up to teeth. Works for me.
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I’m loving my camera lately. Taking pictures makes me happy. Will it lead to bigger and better things? Who knows? Who cares right now, really anyway? I’m just enjoying it. The only thing that makes me sad is thinking of all the awesome places I’ve been - London, Oxford, Paris, Belfast, Glasgow, Edinburgh - to name a few, where I just snapped pictures for the sake of snapping and didn’t really think about what I was doing. I hope some day I get to go back and really take pictures the way I like to take pictures now. P.S. If you haven’t already, please look at the post below this one. It contains some photos I’m very very proud of.
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And finally, for now, I read a wonderful post yesterday in which the writer said: “I’ve long clung to the theory that creative people are rarely tidy.” That sentence, to me, was like an epiphany, and explains a lot about why I cannot seem to stay on top of keeping the house neat and tidy. I think that most creative people either have the energy to be creative, or the energy to be tidy, and not both at the same time. And I mostly choose to use my energy to be creative. Or that’s what I’m going to tell myself. That and the whole being the mother of a two-year-old thing. I think those excuses will work for now. ;)