It's my journal and I'll whine if I want to
Just to clear up some things:
1. I know that I am blessed by my pregnancy. So don't think I don't believe that - I do and I pray for my baby's health every day. And trust me there are plenty of smiles and happy tears.
2. I know that many are not blessed with the ability to have a baby. I have two very good friends who have not had the blessing of getting pregnant or being able to carry a baby to term. I hope that my blessings continue and I am able to do so, but I think of them a lot and my heart breaks for them because I know how much it hurts to watch people all around you getting pregnant and having babies and you not being able to.
3. I understand that people do it again and again. At this point in time I don't understand WHY, but perhaps I will in a couple of weeks.
That being said….
1. I'm miserable.
2. I'm depressed because I'm miserable (forget post-natal depression, after all the sickness and scariness of this pregnancy I will be so relieved I can't imagine it happening).
3. I've only got a few more months to be able to whine. Then I have to grow up.
SO LET ME WHINE NOW DAMMIT!!!
