Foreshadowing? Coincidence? Time will tell.
It's funny how things happen sometimes.
Just the other day I was saying to a friend of mine that I was trying to take control of things in my life. I realized that I didn't have control of my relationship with my father, only my reaction to it. I made a choice to let go. It is a choice that I am content with.
At the same time I said, I DO have control over having a baby. It may not be biological, but I will have a baby one way or another. And perhaps just saying that and realizing it made a difference.
More….
I had purchased a fertility monitor and had yet to see it actually tell me that I was about to ovulate. I thought perhaps it had to do with the accident and all of that but it was bothering me. However, Saturday morning, the third bar finally darkened meaning the monitor was telling me I was going to ovulate within the next 24-36 hours. How did I react to that news? I burst into tears. Mike said, if you're crying now over ovulation, what are you going to do if you get pregnant? Cry harder was the response!
Now the really funny part of all this is that on Friday Mike went with me to school to help with my winter party and the kids were telling me I needed to have a baby. When asked why, they replied that I was too bored. Then later in the day a parent of a former student asked me if we were pregnant yet. On Saturday afternoon, Mike went to get his hair cut and the stylist (who is also MY stylist) told Mike his Christmas with for us was to conceive. All of this was “out of the blue” so to speak, so it was quite interesting. The on Sunday at church, the readings happened to focus on Mary and Elizabeth and their respective pregnancies. Interesting…very interesting.
Coincidence? Maybe, but as I've said before I don't believe in coincidence, especially when my yearly OB/GYN visit happened to be scheduled for today (and that's been scheduled for awhile). She will be doing some blood tests and getting me on progesterone posthaste to make sure that if there IS a little zygote in there, she (or he) stays in there.
In the meantime? I'm more positive and hopeful about than I have ever been. I have a good feeling. I hope I am not disappointed, but I think maybe this time I won't be. Either way, we are on the way to making sure that conception DOES happen in the next few months by way of blood tests to check everything out. So, dear readers, I will let you know. Sooner or later. You will know. And I? I am smiling. Inside and out.
