Damned If I Do or Damned If I Don't
You know, a lot of people told me that I would go through a period of anger with my mother when she died. I really didn't back then, but there are times now that I feel angry at the situation that her death has left me in. I think to myself, “Mom, why did you have to die and let all this stuff with my father happen?” Well, of course I know the answer, and I'm really not angry with her. I'm just angry at the situation.
So now there is this drama going on with my dad. He is in the hospital and going to have surgery Wednesday. And he wants me to come and see him. But I don't want to go. There are many reasons for this. And there are reasons why I should go and probably will. But I will have to talk about them tomorrow because I'm really tired.
