I had all these grand plans to stay up late with Mike and watch tv, or talk, or whatever *wink* *wink*, but alas, he has pooped out on me - still trying to recover from his 7 gigs in three days weekend…poor guy…I guess I should be a good wife and go to bed and cuddle with him…but waaaahhhh…I wanna stay up late….waaahhhh…

All this blogging has got me itching to have a website again…(I see Syndromes looking for a place to hide when he reads this since he is always the one who gets my frantic emails when I can't get something to work)…so my ideas are germinating in my brain, and maybe once school is out I'll try and work on it…we'll see…I really want a place where I can have a more advanced type of blog like the movable type ones…VERY JEALOUS I AM!!! (Syndromes is probably hiding again)

Sidenote: Syndromes, you are such a good teacher…never treating me like an idiot, but patiently explaining… :)

Anyway, we shall see what develops…as time and money are always a roadblock in these things…

What a conundrum of a day…on the one hand, I was in a great mood, but my students did not have such a good day behaviorwise, and that sort of put a damper on things…

My day for those who care:

*No matter how hard I try, at this time of the year I cannot get out of the house before 6:30…senioritis? sorta…18 more days, but only 17 for me!

*Kids seemed to be having a decent day, until I picked them up from lunch and found out my whole class got lunch detention for not being quiet in the cafeteria…*sigh* So I had to be mean teacher and give them the mother of all lectures…I hate that. And personally, I think being quiet in the cafeteria is silly…they have to be quiet all day in class…lunchtime should be a break…I don't mean go crazy, but let them visit for goodness' sake!

*I had to stay over an hour late after work to prepare for the sub…is taking the day off really worth it? I wonder…

*But I came home to a nice surprise…two comments in my journal…those emails are happy little gifts to liven up my day! I only wish I could link all of you! Unfortunately, livejournal has it's limits…

*Mike took me out to dinner at Red Lobster 'cuz I wanted a change…he's a sweetie :)

*I don't have to go to bed early 'cuz I don't have to get up…who wants to take bets on how long I'll actually be able to stay up and awake? :P

*I'm sleeping in tomorrow!!!

*I'm looking forward to taking some classes this summer. Haven't taken any classes since I graduated…I am long overdue.

In all careers, you must go through a review process…that's nothing unusual…but I'm not sure how many of them involve the boss sitting there watching you do what you do, pen and paper in hand…
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Moonpuddle clarified what she was saying about not being able to find the words to say I love you…How many times have I heard a song and wished that I had thought of that…or read a poem and marvelled at the turn of a phrase or seen a beautiful picture or painting and felt the love that was poured into it, etc…I envy Mike being able to sit at the piano and just compose music at will…okay, so it's not always soul-stirring music, but it makes me envious nonetheless…of course, the only song he ever wrote for me was when we broke up many years ago…”love is only perfect when it's first anew, you try to keep the love alive even when it's almost through…” etc. etc. okay, it's not Shakespeare, but at least he wrote something! And although I've felt inspired, I have never once been able to get it on paper the way I really want it to be…maybe someday…I'll keep hoping…haha…oh well…I guess we can't ALL be Shakespeare can we?

But even though we haven't written anything amazing…hahaha…we do make beautiful music together…I mean that literally :P Can performing music together be like making love? That's an interesting point to ponder and I think I will leave it right there and go no further…

It's Monday…and as those of you who read this with any frequency are well aware, I don't like Monday…but this one as Mondays go is not as bad as usual…because…I took the day off on Wednesday, so it's like having two two-day weeks with a one-day weekend in between…or some such nonsense as that…anyway…point being…I have something to look forward to before Saturday…haha…

On Wednesday, I plan to get registered for summer school, get my oil changed, make a hair appointment for the end of May (he's a busy guy, my Marc), and other assorted things that come to mind…but the best part? SLEEPING LATE!!!

OK, gotta eat breakfast and get ready to go so I can get some fuel on the way to work…hrmph

Someone whose journal I frequent was talking about not being able to find the right words to say I love you to her partner…so this was my answer…and I kinda liked it, so I thought I'd share it here and maybe add to it a little bit…
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I always wake up on Saturday morning with the greatest of intentions and plans to get so much done! I really don't know why I keep kidding myself…by Saturday I'm so tired that all I really want to do is just vegetate…and that's usually what I do…so I did manage to go to the grocery store, load music foldrs, and work on my cds a little…I still have bills to pay sitting here in front of me and book orders to get out…and no laundry got done…but hey, I watched a baseball game and I'm on my fourth dvd…oh well…someday maybe I'll learn that I'm not going to get anything accomplished on Saturday…oh did I mention I polished my fingernails? What a banner day!

Dvds I watched today/tonight: Frequency, At First Sight, Hope Floats, When Harry Met Sally

Dvds I cried over: Frequency, Hope Floats

Why I cried: dead parents…

I miss my mom…every day I breathe…I miss her…

It must be close to Mother's Day…certain times of the year are harder for me than others…Thanksgiving and Mother's Day seem to be the worst…

So those of you who have to put up with me…I'm sorry if I'm higher maintenance right now…just be there and give me hugs if you're near…and I'll get through…

I so love Saturday morning…the only morning at the present time where I do not have to drag myself out of bed and get somewhere at a certain time. That to me is heaven right now…haha…

Mike is already gone to gig so I won't see him until he gets home around 2 a.m., if I manage to stay awake that long…

I have lots of stuff to do today…grocery store, laundry, music folders for church tomorrow…work on organizing my cds…bills…however I have no desire to do anything but maybe take a walk in the park…which I would except I hate this neighborhood…maybe I will later if it's not too crowded…I'll take Bob or Lady with me…Majerle is the better protector, but she's a pain in the arse around people and she's stronger than me…hehe…

She's funny though…she'll like people unexpectedly…and be all lovey dovey…she is picky like me, I guess…so if she likes you…feel honored…okay…enough…gotta eat and get to the grocery store…bleh…grocery stores are full of temptation…waaaahhhhh…I WILL BE STRONG!

This has not been a good diet week for me :( I am blaming it on pms because really I was doing so well with willpower…until I started pmsing and this week…ugh…I've cheated almost every single day…not BIG cheating mind you…and my weight has actually stayed pretty steady…but it just makes me sad because I feel like I have NO willpower at all this week…*sigh* Does this just mean I'm human? Or does it mean I'm weak? I know it means I'm disappointed in myself. :(

Ahhhh….survived another week…four more to go…

Highlights of my day…

*another birthday…joy joy…but this time I made sure chocolate girl got a chocolate cupcake…:p

*Science Is Fun…college students come to the school and do experiments for the children…they LOVED it…one of the cool ones was putting a racquetball in liquid nitrogen and then dropping it…(it breaks because it is frozen)…did you know the temperature of liquid nitrogen is 291 degrees below zero? There were a lot of other cool ones, too, but that was probably one of the highlights for them…I was proud of my kids for actually being able to answer some of their questions, or at least come up with answers that made sense! Yay! They really are learning something!

*Wind…was this a highlight? Ummm…have you ever dealt with a bunch of kids on a windy day? NOT fun. Oh well, at least it is Friday.

20 more days….

Getting up on Friday is slightly easier and slightly harder than the rest of the week…easier because I know it's the last day I have to get up…harder because I know it's the last day I have to get up…ha!

So many things running around in my head that I want to talk about…but since I'll be alone this weekend pretty much, perhaps I'll have time to do it then…aren't you just looking forward to it?

Mike is playing at Country Thunder twice today…and then at a bar, so I won't see him…then he's playing at Country Thunder tomorrow again with a different band and at the bar again…so a triple and a double…fun weekend for me :P $$ for him, though. That's good I s'pose.

So, I'm hanging out at home, I think…maybe I'll go to the church festival for a bit…maybe not. I'm still not in the mood to be around there any more than I have to, but friends told me I could hang out in their food booth with them (although that may be much too tempting for me being PMS time).

Speaking of PMS, I had gained that last pound back that I lost, and I had resigned myself to that since you do tend to gain a little weight at this time of the month. Lo and behold this morning, it's gone again! I ate chocolate and crackers and still lost a pound….hehehe. I can live with that, yes I can!

Well, it's Friday. There are 21 days left…and only 20 more mornings I have to get up…actually 19, because I'm taking Wednesday off to go register for Summer School. I need a break! And my darlings probably need a break from me, too…I feel so sorry for them when I'm pmsing…hahaha.

Oh well, off to work…yippee :P

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Ahhh yes…one of my biggest pet peeves…now don't get me wrong…the concept of Take Your Daughter to Work Day I support…what irritates me as a teacher is that it falls during the school year. Would it have been any less impactful or important to schedule it during the summer when children wouldn't be missing valuable instructional time? And yes, there is the monetary problem…student not there…school does not receive funds for said student…whoever started Take Your Daughter to Work Day is, in my humble opinion, an idiot for their timing, and a genius for the concept…although I think it's just as important to take your Son to work, too, and I wish it would be renamed Take Your Child to Work Day.

Okay, I'm off the soapbox now. I'll just grumble to myself the rest of the day.

22 more days….

Just when you think you've seen it all…here's MY day:

First thing this morning a parent comes in and tells me that one of the other girls is threatening her daughter - saying that her dad's going to come over to her house and beat her…okay…not good…I talk to both of them…threatener swears she didn't say that…all she said was that her parents wanted to talk to threatenee's parents…threatenee maintains that yes she did say that…and there's a witness…witness says yes she did say that…so I tell her…I can't dismiss threats, they have to be taken seriously, so this will be a referral to the office (my philosophy on this one…I am not going to waste class time to sort out who's telling the truth - let the principal deal with it). Wrote a referral, sent it to the office, hasn't been dealt with yet…

One of my students had a birthday. Mom brought in cupcakes…half chocolate, half white (since Mrs. G can't have chocolate..haha). So I ran out of chocolate quickly, and one of the girls bursts into tears because she only likes chocolate. Sorry, have no sympathy for that. My rule: you get what you get and you don't throw a fit. Dry it up. Get over it. There are much more important things in the world to cry over than not getting a chocolate cupcake. Life is not fair sometimes. Move on. Crying is for when you're hurt. Nobody else is crying because they didn't get chocolate…can you tell it's the end of the year? I have no patience for whining right now.

Then we're getting ready to go to music and I look down and see one of my boys pulling a white plastic thing out of his pocket. What is that? I say. He pulls it out and shows it to me…and this is definitely a first for me in seven years of teaching…it's a tampon applicator…WHOA! Where did you get that? I ask. I found it. Where? I ask… at home…did your mom or dad give it to you? No. Well, put it in your backpack and take it home and don't bring it back again. So I figure I need to let his mom know about this yet I don't want to embarrass her…so when she comes to pick him up I tell her that she needs to check his backpack as he brought something to school that he shouldn't have. Oi vey…what will kids do next? In his defense, he obviously didn't know what it was…it was just something cool…so I wasn't mad…just startled? The other teachers did get a kick out of it though…what else CAN you do but laugh?

And finally…at lunchtime…one of my “darling” little girls (what is with the girls today? geesh!) wrote a note to one of my “darling” little boys when they were in lunch detention. It said to the effect of: someone likes you..someone loves you…she wants sex. Ay carrumba. He gave me the note. I asked her if she wrote it. Yes she did. Why? He was sticking his butt in her face. Well, if he was sticking his butt in your face there are better ways to deal with it than writing inappropriate notes. That's an after-school detention. And if you ever do it again, a visit to the principal. Tears from this one too, so I tell her to calm down. You made a choice, now you must live with the consequences. Tough lesson to learn when you're in 2nd grade, but necessary. *sigh*

22 more days…22 more days….

PMS is in full force…I feel chocolate frosting will happen tonight…sometimes you've just got to give in to temptation…It's no fun to diet when you're PMSing…bleh